The clinic basement is my new writing spot, with greying skies full of freezing rain and treetops visible through the high windows. A woodstove warms the damp, chilly air.
This is where I live with 8 year old grandson Felix. It’s a pleasant space and I’m feeling at home for the first time in a long while, comfortable and safe in my body.
My working world is restarting after 2 1/2 years of care-taking my sister and recovering from her death. Her photo is taped in front of me, smiling and radiant. I imagine her looking over me and assisting…
I have a strong vision of a thriving centre including a holistic B&B, simple services in the clinic and healing programs on the land. Getting ready is my focus right now—along with caretaking Felix and continuing to recover from decades of self-generated stress. Finally getting back to the book on my experiences with German New Medicine too.
As part of this new initiative, I plan to train as a Forest Bathing therapist to combine my naturopathic skills, spiritual studies/practice and passion for nature. Imagining myself doing this type of work makes my heart beat faster (or maybe slower) and my face smile spontaneously.
Sometimes I wonder if I’m simply creating more distraction with all these ventures. They keep me up for hours at night, writing lists, measuring furniture, eating protein bars to catch up from not eating enough during the day…
Last night I woke at midnight and went back to sleep at 4, rising at 6 with the alarm, pretty typical for me every 2-3 days. But something changed. While I was in bed with my whirling thoughts and tense body, I was able to slow down and enjoy this phase of excited planning, trusting that the Universe is guiding and protecting me, envisioning people nourished and healed in this loving environment. My body relaxed, my indigestion disappeared and my mood soared.
Really, when I can get outside of my habit of whining, I can see that everything in my life is coming together: inner healing, family, work. I can settle down and simply be of service.
We have a dream team of dedicated and open-hearted people, a beautiful property and many years of experience with healing, cooking for people and creating educational programs and retreats. Now we can take all this to a higher level to offer transformation to souls who are hungry for it.
Looking forward to seeing you on the Way!